It's pretty rare that I have down time. I am a bit of an obsessive worker bee. I often feel like if I'm not being productive, I'm not being. And the world is so crazy these days. If you're not careful, life becomes a never-ending stream of dings and beeps and "have-to-do's" and constant shifts and interruptions. From texts to social media to work to, well... EVERYTHING. The problem is that in all of the hurry and scurry you begin to lose yourself and all the joy in your life…Read More
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I've heard the word "hypocrite" thrown around a lot lately. What exactly is a hypocrite anyway? According to Merrian-Webster a hypocrite is:
A person who claims or pretends to have certain beliefs about what is right but who behaves in a way that disagrees with those beliefs.
A person who acts in contradiction to his or her stated beliefs or feelings.
We are all on crazy high-alert these days for hypocrisy in all it's many forms. It's so fun to throw stones right now isn't it? It feels vindicating to point out EVERYONE ELSE'S hypocrisy and sit on our moral high horses knowing that we ourselves are untouchable. There is so much hypocrisy OUT THERE and so much of it makes us SO MAD!!!
So all this has got me thinking about the hypocrisy in my own life. When all is said and done, we each have to look at ourselves in the mirror every day and account for our behavior - so I decided to account for some of mine. I spend a lot of time with myself so I figured I'd be a good person to start with. Since I am tired of reading about and watching all of my friends tear each other down for their hypocrisy (assumed or actual), I thought I’d go ahead and pick apart some of my own for your entertainment…Read More
Ok, so that title could totally be a Dr. Suess poem about mid-life. I'd write it, but I'm not a poet. not even close.
This week is my birth week. (Happy Birthday to me!) I'm pleased to say that I've lived another adventurous year on this Earth. I'm older than I ever imagined I could possibly be when I was a young kid. I'm 42! So young yet so old.
Mid-life is a funny time. You have lived enough life to have some perspective of how much time has passed and also how little time is left. You've had friends and family members come and go. It’s a time to evaluate the choices you’ve made and really take a long look at where you're headed…Read More
Everyone has got something they've given up to get where they are. Maybe it's soccer, or art, or dance, or macrame, or scrapbooking, or a degree you don't use because you chose to stay home with your kids. Many times its something that’s not in your control. Maybe you didn't have the support to pursue the things you wanted to do. Maybe the resources weren't there and you needed to remain practical in order to survive.
Sometimes you’ve had to give up the biggest things. Sometimes it's people, or your home. Rest assured, everyone has something.
Even if your life is amazing, it’s too easy to get stuck and pine over your “give-ups.” It’s really easy to stagnate where you are and look back at all of the “what-ifs” in your life and feel the sting of those losses. It’s also way too easy to bury many of the things you gave up and assume that you are past them or that you too old or too practical to fit them into your life anymore.Read More
I haven't written or really created anything in a while. While that's generally not good as far as consistency, it has allowed me to take care of a few things (as I wrote about here) and has given me a chance to reflect on my creative focus.
The last several months have been a really difficult time to be creative. In addition to needing to take a break to handle my personal life, family, job, house, etc, I (probably like a lot of people) also really haven't known what to make, say or do. Call me old fashioned, but I feel like anything I sit down to write or make is supposed to help fix something. Otherwise, what's the point? And there is...Read More
Busy. Life is busy.
I'm in the busiest years of my life. Being busy is a privilege. I totally get that. (Although sometimes it feels like a giant anvil living invisibly on your chest).
Right now, I am busy.
Don't get me wrong, I am NOT complaining. But in my general state of busy there isn't a whole lot of room for the art that I have been so passionate about.
I've been making...Read More
Everything is happening now. Everything needs our attention NOW.
Stay informed. Stay activated. Stay vigilant. Educate yourself. Stay passionate. Work toward everything in your life. Work on everything that's wrong with the world. Be everything to everyone because you want to. You NEED to. You HAVE to. The world is telling you you SHOULD.
I am not a big fan of pictures of myself. Videos are even worse. In the age of selfies and social media this seems totally counterintuitive. I love pictures of my family, but I am usually the one taking them so I can stay comfortably out of the way.
First and foremost let me be clear that this is not about false modesty or backhandedly seeking out compliments from people. I literally, quite honestly don't like looking at myself. I think a lot of people are in this boat.
It stems from multiple sources. When I was a kid my...
Demons. A dark side. We've all got one. I have inherited demons from my parents and grandparents before that. I inherited them right along with my height, hair and eye color. The demons are in my DNA.
What are the demons you ask? To me they are the things that keep me from being my very best. They are the critical inner voices that downplay my every achievement. They are the voices of jealousy when someone has the success that I think I want or deserve. They are the snarky thoughts that flit through my mind and judge things or people in a negative light. They are the...Read More
In the New Year...
I will not let the ugliness of the world break me.
I will teach my kids that the world is not a horrible place where no one can make a positive difference.
I will believe that people have some streak of good in them, no matter how misguided they might be.
I will...Read More